I love reading poetry and lyrical writings, but I am hesitant to read new things. I have a fear that I'll discover something beautiful and clever. Because whenever I do I think, "damn it, now I'll never be able to come up with that myself". It will forever be something I can't create myself and that makes me sad in a wistful kind of way, I feel like doors are suddenly closed to me. Not that I consider myself a lyrical genius, or even a lyrical competent, but I just like myself better when I know that something I write is wholly mine.


case in point:

Don't you feed me lies, about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures
-postal service.

Rhyming "suture" with "future" in a love song? Genius. Pure unadulterated genius.