intl travel note tobself

stop going to the airport so late. intl check in ends 1 hour prior to departure time. 

t minus 13 days

im so excited and eager for my 3 week vacation to start. I want to explode. 

I know I will have to return to this lovely home and life. but my romantization of this trip feels built around the false sense there will be a permanent change. 

my future is blank beyond this vacation. there is nothing in my life after this vacation.