night terrors, every night, 5am, cold sweat, waking up

dear reader, 

since returning home I find myself waking up in the middle of every night. while in itself this phenomenon is not unusual and in fact is my normal sleep quality, what is different is that I wake up in quasi panic and confusion.   

I look around my unrecognizable dark room, lit only by the green light of the power button on my oscillating fan, and wonder where I am.

 I often think I'm still in japan. but then I remember I'm not, I'm not there or indonesia or Africa, i remember that im finally back home.   then I go back to sleep. 

it's been mere weeks but those countries and lives seem so so far away already 

update:  recently I wake up for other reasons.  I must still think I'm in the jungles of indo or the dusty zimbabwe village when go to bed thinking its not that hot here in hawaii. but wake up covered in sweat.